A Journey of Faith: Settle It Now

Well, the journey Michelle and I have laid out about God’s provision is a life-marking journey–today I am bringing the story to its miraculous closing. Read the stories below for the whole story:

A Journey of Provision
A Journey of Faith | Timing and The Lord’s Provision
A Journey of Faith | The Lord’s Provision & Trusting God
A Journey of Faith: Beginning with Hope
A Journey of Faith: Life that Can Not Be Taken

Our family lines will be greatly marked for good by what God’s allowable will has brought before us.  But you know? Sometimes when everything seems so very wrong and unfixable, focus your eyes on the story God has written all around and over your life.  Recount the times He has done wonders over your life.  Don’t forget to recount the times that something could have happened and didn’t…those times unseen are just as real as the times seen.

So let me bring the story of the painting home to you…

My Chris and I have been married for 22 year this summer, and for good or for bad, we have a marked stumbling point in the area of discipline–be it financial, physical or interpersonal–and follow through.  No excuses, we battle it every single day.  We must choose differently for the circumstances to fall differently.  On the wonderful side of it, we have willing hearts.  We follow God and love Him with all that we are.  So we must bring our willingness to the throne of Jesus every single day to walk well.  And truth be told, we are!  We are breaking some old habits and finding freedom in so many areas.

Amazingly, we had a “too hard for us, but not too hard for God” set-up going on.  Last year, we struggled with all that we were to work hard and make ends meet financially. It was a hard year for us–the hardest, yet. With details left in a mostly vague sense, we were really on the edge all year long.  It all came to a head on December 3rd.

But let me back up two days…our friend Greg had come into town.  We have such honor and respect for our friend and his family.  We had been in the same home group (our church calls them base camps) for a couple years, when we first came to Colorado.  Then God led their family to serve with YWAM in other places. Greg came over to share his heart with us about the ministry that God is doing through their family right now. So we spent a wonderful few hours together and Greg began to speak of India, and some engineering-design needs they have.  I watched my Chris’ face light up.  I knew that he would go with Greg later this year or early next…I knew it, but I also thought, “Lord, how in the world will we ever afford it?  We can barely… (you fill in the blanks, for I had a slew of financial needs come to mind).”

Then two nights later, Greg would spend the night with us.  We picked up the conversation right where it was left on Saturday. That evening, Chris had picked up the mail. And we had a Fed Ex envelope on our front doorstep.  It was a notice of foreclosure.

It basically said unless we did “this” by the end of December, we were out. I was shocked. After Greg left that next morning, he had no idea what God was doing through his story and our own.  That week was filled with calls to our lender.  They had some misinformation (from before bankruptcy) on our credit report, which we had to fix.  Then they worked out a plan of action for us to catch up and keep our home–a plan that would last through June 2013.

The first thing we did was get a working budget in order–something we had lacked for the previous year (fail to plan, plan to fail–yes). We worked through it together as a couple–we still are. We paid a double payment by December–a miracle of God.  The only hitch we saw was January.  It went below the line.  There seemed to be no way for us to make it–we could not figure it out on our own accord. With much prayer, my Chris spoke to our home group men, letting them know our situation and asking for accountability, too. Within ONE hour, a dear brother brought to our doorstep a check for the amount needed, to repay without interest when we could.

I was a puddle of tears.  Poor brother, I know I made him uncomfortable!  But he told me, “We had this extra and we did not even have to pray about it.”  They, too, had been in a similar situation–and they wanted to help us.  What rescue!  Only a Christ follower would walk in such a way.  How undeserved we were.  And how very LOVED.

I closed the door and sat at the table, head in hands, praying…then I heard a gentle whisper in my spirit.  And I knew it was the voice of God.  He said, “It is finished.”  That is all I heard.  And how shall I take it?  I took it as meaning that our financial journey is done.  The fullness of what God wanted for this part our lives was completed.

I knew Chris would go to India.

I knew that we would not go back there again.

I knew that we still had 6 months more of tightness before us, but that we would be equipped for it.

The next day, and by no surprise at all, God pulled out his highlighter with bold print and ALL CAPS!!!! The next day, Michelle’s painting arrived at our doorstep– from Fed Ex, no less. God wanted us to know that He is our Provider.  He will be seen.  And through this very unguarded and transparent story of our lives, I pray you see God, too.

It is finished.  See it here on our wall?

Settle It

God is telling us every day, that we need to settle it in our hearts that He is FOR us and with us.  He is providing–even dividing and multiplying.

When our financial circumstances may hearken back to where we were, sometimes even on a daily basis, my Chris and I must settle it in our hearts–that Jehovah Jireh, the Living Word, who spoke Philippians 4:19 over us, is STILL speaking it. We are provided for.

“And my God will liberally supply, fill to the full, your every need according to His riches in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19

In Him, we are so very rich!  And that budget I spoke of?  It is projecting that we will have in our savings over $10, 000 by year’s end. But we do not look to that, no.  We look to, and keep looking to, Jesus alone.  What a turn-around.  What a Savior!

All for HIS Glory,

Holly winter2012

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About Holly

Holly loves her job as wife to Chris and mom to Noah, Kylie, Tabor and Sydney. God has gifted Holly with a love of all things creative ~ from painting and wall papering to scrapbooking and design work. In addition to co-founding and managing A Martha Heart, she designs web pages (www.crownlaiddowndesigns.com) and marketing pieces. She also authored a devotional blog, now closed, called Crown Laid Down. Holly and her family make their home within site of year 'round snow-capped mountains in Colorado. She can be reached by emailing Holly (AT) a martha heart (DOT) com or connect with her on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HollyGorinSmith


  1. God humbles & delights me every time I hear of the testimony of His grace on my life & I. The life of others. Beaitiful.

  2. Holly,
    I LOVE seeing in the lives of others how God is ALWAYS at work. He sees us and knows what we need, when we need it.

    Thanks so much for sharing how God’s hand was so evident in your circumstances. Some people might have missed that! LOVE that you didn’t! :-)

  3. Holly,

    Stephanie, said it best. Thanks for sharing your heart and the grace of God over you, Chris and your family! He’s an awesome God!


  4. Great testimony. My God is awesome!


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