The other day I shared a letter to my 15 year old self. However, I did not share the whole story. It is a story of love, restoration, and redemption beyond what anyone can imagine. I cannot share it all in one post because it is such a long story. If you want to read all the entire story, you can hop on over to my blog and check out my testimony that has the entire story for you to read.

I had a really skewed view of what marriage was when I was younger, so when I did get married–marriage was just a thing. I had no clue about God, the Bible, Jesus, faithfulness–nothing like that. I was only married because that was what people did when they grew up.

During my marriage, I was unfaithful to my husband on numerous occasions. I put my career before him and our children. In fact, I remember my boss asking us one day what our priorities were. A woman that I worked with answered, “God, family, then work.” He immediately told her she was wrong. He looked and me and said, “Tell them Jennifer how your priorities go.” So I said, “Work then family. I have no time for God.” He applauded my priority list and preceded to tell all the other employees that the reason I was succeeding so well in the sales field was because I was willing to forsake everything else in order to get the job done.

Little did I know that what I was doing would almost ruin my family and my marriage.

You see, I was a woman bringing down the bucks. I was large and in charge and I was not going to give that up for anyone! But I am so glad that God had other plans.

The week right before my husband and I got saved, I almost made a terrible mistake. I almost left my husband and children for another man with no strings attached. I was sick of playing mommy and wife and I just wanted to be free.

But God was not done and He knew deep down what the desires of my life would be so He began pursuing both my husband and me. It wasn’t long before we were in church and turning our lives over to Christ. This moment was a small turning point in my life with Christ, however, the hurricane was getting ready to hit!

To make a long story short, God did repair our marriage and fully restored it and gave us a love for each other like no other could ever do. It took a lot of hard work, love, and forgiveness on our parts. Our story is one that will be told in full in the future. It is something that God has allowed me to go through for a reason and I must share it.

Today, if you are going through some rough times, trust what God is asking you to do. Trust that He will give you the boldness to step up and follow through with the task at hand, But the main thing is to lay your life before Him daily.

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