Here I am again, Lord.
Seeking Your Face
Longing for Your Touch
Holding out for Your Voice
Heeding Your commands
Feeling completely undone
But I know that when I come,
You bend low to listen
You shine Your light on my pathway
You give me rest
You take the weight of my worries
You exchange my sorrows for Your peace and love and joy
So why is it that I find myself
Fretting?
Anxious?
Afraid?
Alone?
Weary?
Worn?
Perhaps I am not acting as if I believed You are Almighty God.
Perhaps I wish and hope that You are just that.
But secretly I plan for my own way, my own security just in case…
You are less than able.
You are playing a twisted game with my life.
You are not FOR me.
I did not live up to our promise, so You changed Your mind about me.
So I wait. And realign. And remind myself once again of Your Words to me. They are my LIFE. They are TRUE.
Then I bow my head in sorrow. I turn my eyes up in longing. And I say this one word–Again.
Do it again, LORD.
Show Yourself Faithful.
Again remake my icy-cold heart, warm it with Your breath.
Again.
