“He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the Lord!”
Psalm 113:9 ESV
I read this scripture over and over while I struggled with infertility. I wondered what my home would consist of and who my children would be. Would they be my own children from my own womb? Would they be children that God engrafted into our line? At that point I didn’t know. I only knew that I longed for children. You can read more of that story here.
Then almost seven years into our marriage, I gave birth to our first! Within eight years more, we would have four children. And I would desperately seek to know HOW to be a good mother and to train them in wisdom. From scriptures to books to wise women and men God placed in my path along the way, I would gain such gems that I never could have come up with on my own. I also daily refer to the first chapter of James and remind God that I lack wisdom and that I’m asking. I ask on each of their behalves. I ask because I do not know.
But one thing I DO know. I would find out just a couple of years ago that it should have been impossible for me to have children or to feed them…but with God? Well, HE makes the impossible, possible. So if God saw that I should have children, He would give me and my Chris everything we need to raise them.
You see, God’s provision is not always about finances or food. Sometimes, His loaves and fishes look a lot like my children. As my friend Michelle reminded me, God’s provision, His enough, His name even–Jehovah Jireh–all point back to Him! That God Himself will be seen. When Jesus divided the young boy’s lunch and fed thousands, God was SEEN. So I have stopped praying for His provision. I have prayed only that He may be seen. As I unfold this story before you, friends, I pray that God will be not only SEEN, but known by His act of bending low to feed each of us.
I began with hope for children. I sowed that hope deep in prayer. I watered that hope with my own tears. He brought forth FOUR of our own. We do not take God’s SEEN-NESS lightly. Daily, we seek to teach them more and more of the character of our GREAT GOD.
…the God who LOVES.
…the God who LIVES.
…the GOD who DOES the impossible.
…the GOD who seeks to engraft us ALL into His Story.
I will write more of this story on Friday…I daresay it will take a few posts to get it all in. Stay tuned, ’cause you do not want to miss the WONDER of our BIG GOD!
With eyes wide-open in amazement,