Meet “Margo”
by Margo | January 31, 2011 5:00 am
Hi! I’d like to introduce myself to you.
My name is “Margo”.
Now, I’d like to confess something to you.
Margo is not my real name .
I will be writing here at A Martha Heart under a pen name. I will be writing anonymously mostly from The Closet, in order to speak more freely about some of the trials and tribulations I have been through in my life while protecting the privacy of my husband and children. Some of my stories also intersect with extended family members, and I definitely want to honor their privacy as well.
When I sat down to think about all the difficult issues I could write about from The Closet, I had to laugh because it sounds like a story line from a soap opera. I plan on writing about my mother abandoning me and my sister, my parents’ divorce, my own marriage struggles and almost divorce (twice), my husband’s mental breakdown, my struggles with depression, and add two teens/young adults to the mix and the possiblilites for blog fodder are just about endless! I will also be writing about some of the “sticky situations” we get ourselves into as fallible humans making our way through life.
I did have a couple of concerns about writing anonymously at A Martha Heart. I hope you will hear my heart as I write about the difficulties of life. I am not writing to gain sympathy or attention. I am writing to show that in my darkest days, Jesus was there. No matter what I’ve gone through, He has always been right there with me. He has always fulfulled Romans 8:28 in my life.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I also write to give you hope, that no matter what happens in this life, Jesus loves you, and He is there.
I’m also concerned that I might come across as an Eeyore-type personality or that my life is absolutely horrible. But nothing could be farther from the truth. While I have had my share of heartache in my almost 50 years on this earth, God has blessed me abundantly and I am extremly thankful for the blessings and even the pain. John 16:33 explains where my joy comes from.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
I realize that we all have a story. Some of you have had to deal with much more difficult circumstances than I have. I want to honor your stories and pray for you.
I don’t write as someone who has “arrived” or as one who has all the answers, but I do write as someone who can point you to the One who is the answer to all of life’s problems.
Something helpful in dealing with the problems life sends our way is deciding ahead of time how you will respond to the challenge. Will you despair and fall apart? Or will you grasp on tighter to Jesus’ hand and hold on no matter what?
Kerrie Roberts – No Matter What
I’m running back to your promises one more time, Lord that’s all I can hold on to, I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises you. Before a heartache can ever touch my life, it has to go through Your hands, and even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why,
No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not,if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
When I’m stuck in this nothing-ness by myself, I’m just sitting in silence, there’s no way I can make it without Your help, I wont even try it. I know You have Your reasons for everything, so I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling, God you are my hope, and you’ll be my strength,
No matter what, I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what, no matter what.
Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s ok if You don’t, I’m not here for those things, the touch of Your love is enough on its own, no matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You
No matter what I’m gonna love you, no matter what I’m gonna need you, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not, if not, I’ll trust You, I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not, if not, I’ll trust you, no matter what no matter what no matter no matter what.
Now, that’s some good preaching!
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